Flesh
Grimy slimy sticky
I crawl out of my skin
He touches me and flames ignite
It burns like satan’s saliva
that I swallowed some seconds ago;
dazzling and dizzying
These memories once alive,
Now rotten.
The face of my past-
slithering towards me
shattered, fractured into pieces.
The memory like glass
Shattering and stabbing
In waves, then all at once
‘Tis sweet, ‘Tis sweet
The sweet smirnoff sliding down my throat
No warning of my consequence;
of what was yet to come
Was I,
Infatuated or just empty
My fault either way.
My sin.
My punishment.
Look to my gaze
But they don't realize
I want to scream or sigh,
but I don't let them hear.
Cherry pit,
Stuck in my throat
I can't gulp it down-
The mountain of grief
I couldn't have them looking at me
Picking and prodding
Eyes on me
On my thighs
In my head
Trying to understand
I traded sanity for penetrating piercing pleasure
No traces, No blood
Why do I feel it
Stuck in there
Get this outta me
This hurts, this hurts
I don't cry I don't whisper a sound
Because then they'd see me
They'd know
And I can't bear
Another to feel
This skin
Grimy slimy sticky