Fight The Fear
Fear, a word that made me feel hopeless
A word that made me think my pain was endless
Fear for me was in the representation of a man
You never know your strength
You never know your worth
Until you look fear in the eye
You scream out you don't own me
Everyday I saw him
I face fear in the face
At first I would look away
I would pretend I didn't see him
But now I look him dead in the eye
Screaming internally I yell "you don't own me"
I still have the nightmares
I still have the flashbacks
Little things that remind me that fear has a way of making itself know it still holds you
I thank my body for the grip of fear it still holds
My body does this to remind me that there are battles I still need to fight
I can pretend they don't exist
But in the end the truth comes out
When I wake in a cold sweat
You can try to bury the hatchet
Drink it away
But there are battles that need to be fought
Fear still lives in me
Its a battle I have to fight everyday
Facing him is just the physical form of the battle
The dreams are the interpersonal wounds
The flashbacks represent the emotional battle I must face
I fight the fear everyday