the feelings I feel in silence

Depression, oppression, agression,

What i say to myself, I feel its what people wish they could say to me 

What i say is how i feel people see me but people had to ive me reason to conjour up these thoughts,

Here it is my biggest weakness...... Insecurity!

You will never be good enough for anyone, you are nothing ,Your appearance is shockingly disappointing

Your freckles are marks scattered on yourself that'll never go away

Your hair, your hair is not long and pretty Your eyes do not sparkle and are unpleasent to look at

your nose is oddly big your face a little awkward,

You need to plaster liquids across you're face to look beautiful, but that wont even fix it,

you're not beautiful at all

with or without it

You are not like the skinny girls, youre to fat,

everyday you feel like crying, starving yourself to be like them,

You know you'll never be good enough no matter how hard you try

You're stupid, so dont even bother, they dont even give you a chance to see you as you

Nobody wants you, nobody will ever want you.

STOP being who you are, stop fooling yourself thinking people actually like you or want to be around you.

Your jokes, your jokes aren't funny, you are not funny,funny looking maybe

you're awkward

weird

annoying

you never deserve to be happy,You have absolutely nobody and never will because you are hated,

you should be ashamed of yourself

you pretend to be positive when in all reality you're falling apart constantly trying to pick up the peices

everyone around you is too blind to see it.

You fool yourself into thinking you're okay in hopes that maybe at some point you can fool yourself into thinking its true

You will never amount to anything so stop trying..

You're too damaged for anyone to love you for anyone to even want you

Your'e problems are too much for anyone

I'm so worried about what everyone says and thinks about me

I believe hurtful jokes because i know i am nothing and it reminds me of everything i'm not , I cant be and wish I was

I am me and  I struggle with insecurities, I will never be enough to please anyone, not even myself

There's a point where you don't even know your reason for existence

fearing you'll never actually know

you don't even know yourself,

youre lost trying to be found

People say nobody's perfect

imperfections and flaws are beauty 

But is that really how people feel

I will never reach societies (UN)realistic expectations of the perfect women or even an exceptionable women

I will never be worth it.I AM NOT BEAUTIFUL.

these feelings dont appear out of no where 

they're influenced

influenced by our societies expectations of a human

Stop creating these feelings of insuperiority in others 

This poem is about: 
Me

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