February 26 14

Fri, 09/19/2014 - 22:38 -- caycarr

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Love is a four letter word

& I've been worked into a novel.

There are whole libraries

of letters and bracelets and promise rings

broken in two

(1.Everything you've touched

2. Anything your name clutches) 

filed beneath my bed.

 

Lastnight I went pennypinching

though every million dollar thing

I've been searching

for some sign that the gold standard

has gone wayward-

 

I won't ever be gilded-

my insides are lined in silver

I won't ever be guilty

of regretting someone who once made my heart hazy.

My eyes always get sort of blurry

when the page is only black and white

 

Shannon, you brought color to my life

and to my skin.

You were right when you said 

no one would love me like you do;

I haven't been hurt last Halloween.

 

Laura had the most gentle hands,

eyes to remind my Midwestern mind

that the tide is everrising 

& a heart each sea could sit in.

Occupancy: 4& even more secrets.

 

Chris, I never got to explain 

that I never had a crush on you,

only straight friends who insisted I did

Thank you for keeping a distance-

Same to Nick, Paul, and Taylor.

 

Kellie was nineteen.

Older women are irresistible

and even over women are even more irresistible: 

 

Jess. 

You were the sweetest champagne

with an outer rim of rain

& though I have but such small hands,

I carried all that I could

but I am a lamb not a mule,

and the puddles turned to pools-

I am sorry. 

This is a lamb without loss.

 

Baylee-

"light of my life, fire in my loins"

Bay-lee.

I could never be with someone

who thought Lolita was the height of affection

but I wanted attention.

So I wrote you one hundred poems about someone else-

 

Meg.

The banker& the painter & the sailor& the chaser& the shepard& the printer:

I am willing& spilling for all six,

whatever the fix.

Thank you for skipping ahead to the last page so soon.

I have a feeling these dedications are done.

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