My family, will you love me the same knowing that I am different?
Mom, will you still smile at me knowing that I am not that perfect daughter you wanted?
Dad, “I believe in a different religion.”— Will that stop you from hugging me?
My family, “I love regardless of age, race, and gender.”— Will that cause you all to shun me?
I smile with you, even if it is hollow and fake.
I laugh with you, even if it is forced at times.
I care for you, even when I shouldn’t.
No matter how many times you throw me under the bus and treated like a black sheep,
No matter how many times my voice is drowned out by your inflamed arrogance,
No matter how many times you threaten and frighten me,
I will still be here for you.
I will still care and love you, even if you disown me and treat me less than a human being.
And here I though I was strong for you all, even if you all hurt me with their verbal abuse.
But honestly— I'm not strong.
I cry myself to sleep at times because I have no one,
No one who listens to me the way I do with you.
I don't want to be a nuisance to those I love,
So I will continue to grin and bare it,
I will continue this sad masquerade,
And hope to be loved in return like I love you.