Faith

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The definition of faith is seeing without believing


You trust and you pray hoping that he isn’t being misleading


You can’t see with your eyes, but your heart opens up wide praying that


He will let the pain quickly pass by


At times your mind ponders and you ask him why


If he is so great why would he put pain in your life?


He says that to him all your problems can reside


You open your puffy glossy eyes after you’ve cried


Lonely in the middle of the night and he’s not by your side


Because he isn’t there to hug, you wonder if you’re someone he really loves


Does he even exist?


Or is it all just myths?


You see his words but not his face


You hear them praise, glorify and magnify his name


But evidence of him you see not one trace


The thoughts in your mind start to race


If he loves me like he says my loved ones wouldn’t be dead


If he was real, he wouldn’t let me shed one tear


I would be happy all the time, I would never cry


To my self esteem issues I’d say good bye


I’d look in the mirror and see a beautiful butterfly


Back to reality you examine your life


If he was real, he’d make me feel alive and I wouldn’t need attention from older guys


If he loves me, I wouldn’t be putting myself out there to be appreciated for your breast booty and thighs


I wouldn’t open up my legs at the blink of an eye to feel what I think is love, and then be pushed away to the side


Where is he after the lies?


Where is he after I get out of the back of a grown man’s ride with tears running down your eyes?


Why would he let me be taken advantage of knowing that this stranger wasn’t in it for love?


You’ve had enough you’re tired of giving it up


You look to him above but see no one


You start to cut


You start to drink


Hoping that this will distract you from your past pain and misery


Where is he to stop you from doing these harmful things?


The answers to your questions you may never know


Until the day you die you may keep guessing and stressing


But one thing’s for sure you still have your life and that’s a blessing


 


 


 


 

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