How can I express in words the Weight of how heavy my heart is, or how the straight jacket that is my rib cage tightens around my lungs with every breath I breathe, or how lonely this fucking world feels even though billions and billions of people are still awake. 

How can I express the loneliness that creeps up behind me and tickles the back of my neck to send shooting coldness that laces it’s way down my spine. 

How can I express that I no longer want to taste the bountiful fruits of life because everything just taste sour in my mouth since I was 12 and I hate sour things. 

How do I express?