Everything will be okay
You see leaving was not my biggest fear.
Saying goodbye was.
Leaving just meant I would not be physically a part of the group anymore.
Leaving ment absence,
the absence of witnessing what happened in school,
or the joke at the cafeteria.
Saying goodbye means forgetting.
It would start with little things like the joke at the cafeteria.
but soon it would turn to big things.
Until all together I would be a memory of freshman year.
Leaving meant we would still keep in touch,
because even though I was not there physically
I would always be there in spirit
Right?
Saying goodbye gave them the right to move on,
to leave me behind holding on
to things that are not even there anymore.
Leaving meant they would still have eachother
because we were all just that close.
No matter what we would stick together.
I learned the hard way that bonds can be broken with distance
no matter how strong.
Saying goodbye meant I would be alone.
It meant battling my own problems with no one to back me up.
It meant becoming stronger for my own good.
It meant adapting to change and making new friends.
It meant accepting that everything will be okay
even after saying goodbye.