Salvation means different things to many people
Reared by a single mother
Abandoned by a deadbeat absentee dad
I am confused and angry
Now am I supposed to feel them
I have no mentors
Or anyone in my life 
That cares enough to teach me
How to be a woman
My life didn't come equipped
With an automatic pilot
For a successful life

What I had growing up was
Religion
Not beliefs but principles
1Kings
2Kings
James 
Ecclesiastics 
From Genesis to Revelation 
To the 1 and 2 Chronicles
Corinthians, Peter, John
From sunrise service
To afternoon fellowship
To young to realize
That mother's salvation
Isn't mine

Sitting in church 
8 hours each Sunday
Praising the Lord 
At the top of my lungs
To the top of my voice
Being baptized at the age of 5
Well before I even understood why
Didn't make me a saint
No amount of bible study
Ushering or participation in church 
Could save me
Or the congregation 
From sin and all evil 

The chasing of the wind 
Repentance 
What was the point in asking 
Seeking and praying 
For forgiveness
Yet not changing ones ways 
Or taking on bad habits
That were sinful
There was no point
Everything is meaningless