Every Time Someone Asks if I'm Okay I Tell Then I'm Fine

Fri, 11/09/2018 - 11:28 -- Female

The word fine is just a condition to convince yourself that you’re going to be

okay

I guess fine is just a surgeon working on my

spine

after being hit by a

crowbar

I guess fine is the word that I say to convince

myself

rather than to convince the person I’m saying fine to

I guess fine is a smile on my face while my wrists are crying to bleed

fine is

laying in bed listening to the laughter in the living room

fine is the smell of

alcohol

on my father’s breath

fine is every call my mom gets about work

fine is every sick joke that’s punch line is a punch in my face

fine is the dreams I have about leaving this place

I guess fine is the razor sitting on my dresser waiting to be used

fine is the 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 pills down my throat

I guess fine is the shotgun I know that my father has underneath his bed

fine is “I understand what you go through”

I guess fine is just

fine

I guess

fine means that I’m breathing so I guess I’m

fine

fine can be replaced by words like okay and good and alright

So I’m okay

I’m good

I’m alright

But really fine means help

it means I really want to die

fine means I picked up the razor last night and I put it back down

fine is every ghost in my closet

it is please sit down

get out of my face

fine is OMG Deja you’re

fine stop acting

Fine means bury me 6 feet under ground

fine is my plea

it means I’m struggling

fine means I'm not

fine it means help

fine means help

it means help

fine means I been down this road before and I know how

many time I have to cut my leg in order to be truly

fine

Fine is my writing this poem when I’m

not fine and then performing it when I

am so I guess what I’m trying to say is

I’m fine

 

This poem is about: 
Me

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