I never expected a wedding invite
Or a Father's day card
Not in repayment for the father I've been
But you ended up giving me so much more
15-minute calls that feel like 30 seconds
Leaving me dumbfounded at your love
And utterly breathless
The one word you say to me
Dad
Is certifiably priceless
It helps me forget what the manner of my vice is
Looking at the back of my eyelids
Because I can't enter my dreams
At the thought of the airport
Where in one month to the day we'll meet
It's been a decade and somehow you still love me
I don't deserve that
Not for letting you grow up without a dad
Somehow you forgive me
And I don't deserve that
I can't help but divulge the facts...........
I'm an addict
The college dropout
A violent felon prone to rage
You're an angel
A thriving college student
And a heart that gives and never takes
I'm a thug
I'm a psychopath
I've lived my Life in the fast Lane
You're a cuddle bug
And I know that
From your wife who's learning to love me too
I don't deserve either of you
If I could make it all up
By setting things right
I'd get out and stay out
Get a cozy 9 to 5
I'd settle down
And live The Good Life
I'd see you in the Summers
Like we did when you were little
I'd play You songs by the waterfall
That we used to jump into
I'd make you cheesecake
We'd eat it until we burst at the seams
And then Grandma's we'd even have Mississippi mud pie
Until we couldn't fit into our jeans
I thank God you love me
Even though he knows I don't deserve that
But love is so blind
I guess that's where we're both at
Loving.......... In spite of mistakes and long absences
Caring.......... In the face of trials and tribulations
Love can be so selfless
It leaves me feeling helpless
But we love nonetheless in response
To living after patriarchal death