Epiphany
there was a small epiphany expanding in my chestr
it was rotting slowly but it is now reborn
it began gradually at a speed, in ripples and then waves
and it swirled in my ribs, poured down to the pit of
my stomach and my hips and my toes
a blooming realization
i am more than what i have done to myself.
i am more than the discoloration
all along my succulent thighs and poor wrists and plump belly
(my epiphany is boiling at this point)
i do not exist to feel nothing
i exist because i am the feeling
here's what i plan to feel like:
i plan to feel like your first kiss
crisp leaves, cold lemonade and your favorite blanket
your mother's hug when you were four
and the smell of rain in your hair
the warmth from your lover's palm
and the sweet breath of a baby
i am more than that dark corner
(my epiphany is finally in my throat)
my window is open and the air is clean
my imperfections are nothing more, i am a bird
and my wings are healing bone by bone
the nights where i stood along
holding my insides with sweaty palms
i breathe them in and recycle them
my epiphany is here
i am a new person by the sunrise