An EDS Body
I fear the day I relent to the pain
the day I give in and let it take over my brain
controlling every bit of my life like an aimless marionette
dancing along to a violin cortet
the doctors are optimistic and I would be too
if it weren't so incredibly hard to tie my own shoes
I fear the day when I can no longer walk
when my knees buckle and lock
the wheelchair will become permanent
as my legs grow heavy like cement
when I become completely sedintary
and mothers in stores tell their children to be polite and wary
But the thing I fear most of all?
when I become fully dependant on others as I hit the ultimate downfall
as time passes and gradually become a shell of my former self
rusty, dented, and broken like an old can on a shelf
when I can't even shower on my own
and loose all rights to even a moment alone
Most will read this and think my fears are far in the future
but with EDS these fears are much sooner
I could go through all of this in twenty years or less
so I fear my EDS body
nothing more
nothing less.