Drowning
I'm drowning and you can't save me
Not this time
Before, when I'd go under you were always there to pull me up
But now you can't
Because this time you pushed me down
So I pushed you away
But I will be saved
My friends are throwing life preservers
Wading in, reaching out hands
Trying to pull me up like you did so many times before
And soon I will grab on
But not right now
Right now I need to struggle on my own
Fight to keep alive so I can prove to myself that I can do it without you
And even as I fight by myself
My friends are still watching
Ready to dive down if I go under for too long
So I'm really not alone
But in this ocean for the longest time all I knew was you
Which is why it seems so empty
But my friends are on the shore
Building out docks to reach me
Sending prayers and safe passage
I am drowning
You cannot save me
But this time I will be okay
I will survive
High on dry land
While you drift away in the sea