I was always afraid of the water as a little girl.

 

Little droplets moving on my skin used to give me the chills.

 

I was uncomfortable with my body entering deeper into the pool.

 

I never learned how to swim so I was always drowning and laughed at like a fool.

 

My body was so small but the ocean waves continued to drag me into its chaotic currents.

 

No one hearing my cries and screams,

 

The lifeguards never noticed me,

 

Drowning. 

 

I am always drowning everyday.

 

In emotions of fear or sadness, or aggression,

 

And happiness.

 

People around me never understand how I usually feel.

 

Always misreading my demeanor,

 

Mistaking my tone,

 

Confusing my words,

 

Never knowing when to let it go.

 

I am drowning from a broken heart that consumes me everyday.

 

Battling with the words in my brain that begs me to give up. 

 

Struggling to challenge myself in healthier ways,

 

Watching the days past while waiting for motivation to keep my head high. 

 

My heart is so big but my tears continue to drag me into a dark place to suffocate me.

 

Until someone hears my cries and screams,

 

Until someone begins to notice,

 

Save me.