Double Heartbreak
When I was a child, I fell in love
I wish it was something I could be proud of
It felt real to the core
But now it feels like a sad chore
Having someone to talk to
About the shit that's inside my head like a zoo
It felt special
But I became the devil
My body wasn't ready for it
It decided enough was enough
So I became a snake that bit
I bit into his heart
And broke it apart
He almost died
Definite internal death, almost real death
Because I refused to be his bride
I got so caught up in scaring away the monsters in my life
I got blinded to the fact that I became a sharp knife
I became just like them
The monsters I was afraid of
So now I am to blame
To any kids reading, I hope you don't end up bleeding because of a broken heart
Bleeding emotionally out of grief, or physically from depression
Because what I've caused is the opposite of a great start
And I am still that little 12-year-old girl
The one who is unloveable and unloving
That one that makes everyone want to hurl
Who broke her life before it even began
By causing heartbreak just like every other bitchy girl does
Breaking someone else made me MORE light-hearted than a bad man
(Still a work in progress, I'm not done yet)