do you miss me?
do you miss me?
the way we laid together
pressed together so our souls could touch
breath in sync
no thoughts except for
the closeness of our bodies
and calories
how little do you have to weigh to be underweight
did I eat more than you at dinner?
split cans of soup
pacing constantly or else you would die, “like a shark”
halo top on my kitchen floor
always touching
your leg on mine
rocking back and forth
the light of your fitness watch our only guidelines
i know it was sick of us
to love another so ill
simply resting in the wreckage of our minds
but i found comfort in the debris
and you found comfort in me
so we sat intertwined
in the house i built of scraps
until you got bored
and i grew bitter
you moved on fast
like we never happened
first it was him
then her
him
her
your fancy art school friends
and i was left alone in the aftermath
suddenly it wasn't as comforting as i thought
the debris turned rough and sharp
leaving me bloodied and bruised
its okay though
wouldn't be the first time
blood under my nails
bandaids in my pocket
scars on my legs
i know its not your fault
your lack of empathy
lack of trust
it was ingrained in you
so i can't be mad
i could never be mad at you
because its not your fault
it never was