Do not tell me

Do not tell me to go to sleep

That is was just a nightmare

Do not tell me

Do not tell me I’ll feel better when the sun comes up

Of course I will but what about now

Do not tell me

Do not tell me that it’s hormones or stress

Of course it’s stress what do you think anxiety is?

Do not tell me

Do not tell me I am fine

Because I know I’m not

I am not fine

Do not tell me

Do not tell me my vision will clear and that everything will be ok

Because it won’t

Do not tell me

Do not tell me it’s all your fault

God, some people I feel are selfish when they blame it on themselves

What about me

This conversation is about me

This conversation has no blame

And I don’t feel bad for you

Because there was nothing you could do

This is about me

And how I am struggling

Do not tell me

Do not tell me I will be ok until you’ve seen the monsters

I battle everytime the sun goes down

Do not tell me

Do not tell me that things get better

Because I know they get better

I have had better

Do not push me

Do not push me for answers that I don’t want to give

Do not cry for me

Do not cry for me for I don’t need that

What I need is someone to be strong for me when I cannot be strong

Do not blame yourself for me

You are not to blame

How the hell are you able to cause this much trauma to my brain

Do not trouble yourself with me

I am fine working this out on my own

Do not ignore me

Don’t ignore the fact that I am internally injured

Cause I’m still here with all my sadness and anger

Do not critique me

I want support not advice on how to change

I will ask for your advice when I want it

Do not anger me

I know this one’s hard because

I seem angered all the damn time

Do not act like everything is fine

Maybe for you it is but I am constantly fighting

A battle of pain and suffering

Do not underestimate the pain in me

For that pain is the only thing that can make me weak

Do not try and fix me

I am not to be fixed I am not another broken vase

My music isn’t affecting my depression

My depression is affecting my music

Do not tread on ice around me

I am no fragile little girl anymore

I am a warrior who has taken her pain and

Made it into a horse with reins to guide me on the path I want

Do not lie to me

Don’t think that I can’t handle the truth

If I can handle my demons I can handle anything

Do not tell me

Do not tell me what I can or cannot do

Do not tell me I am weak or fragile

Do not tell me I need a boy to figure shit out

Because I seem fine on my fucking own

Do not tell me

Do not tell me I am fine

When very clearly

I am not ok