No more Disney

No more Queens and Kings

No "Happily Ever After"'s

No diamond rings

 

I remember it all

No need for a crystal ball or

Therapist to bring it back. 

 

Why is she shouting

Why is he leaving

The car is still on, he's still outside

Why can't anyone hear me?

 

Bruises like dull sapphires bloomed

             Daddy, what’s that?

Fabric screeched in my ears as it was ripped

            Mama, what’s that sound?

The seatbelt was no longer fabric but thorns digging

            I can’t breathe

Into my neck

 

It was as if silence had taken a vacation

Anywhere but in the car we were

 

Stop hitting each other

Daddy, stop it

Mama, what’s going on?

 

After that night I realized

That Disney had lied.

 

Love isn’t always true

And sometimes it makes you

bleed, black and blue

 

The night with police lights

Illuminating every screamingly silent tear

Revealed every single fear

Even those too adult for me to fight

Watching him leave sealed it

 

Four year old me, was no longer a kid.