Disheartend Delight

A darkness almost too well liked
I cower behind it, just to embrace it
Ripped from right underneath me
I helplessly fall

To think of void and bliss as one
I withdraw back in
Shaking in my shell
Daring to let no one in

I often ponder and banter the idea
It seems all too sublime
And like a perturbed fire
It burns when you get too close

I'm startled at the realness
At any given moment it can vanish
Where mist would just cloud up
It would vaporize in the air

But, I'm stuck
I'm stuck knowing all the negatives
Forced to retreat back to a plain of dreams
Not wanting to get ripped by the winds

Painfully haunting the agony
An unknown plague of lust fills the air with its toxins
Not knowing whether to hide
Or breathe in it's fumes

Oh, how I crave for the scent
Oh, how I yearn for the winds voice
Oh, how I thirst for the flames hot touch
Who's to know when air just dissipates

The fears have me tied up
The knots so tight
Only to loosen the rope
Becoming truly alone