Diary of a Hurt Black Woman
Searching for better in me while I find my identity
Looking for better for me because I deserve all I receive
I deserve the negative shit because it opens my eyes to better shit
& I deserve the positive things because I feed off in order to gain
Pain, I've had enough of it
I can write a book on all the pain I was suffering
Take a look get a glance of my battles
Because if I settled I'd be less of a woman
Giving up takes the best of these woman
Choosing love over your life cause that boy you was loving was your life
You gave him your heart & he only gave you a slice
He was with you by day & another at night
He was saying he loves you with his fingers crossed tight
He took your virgintiy, he took your identity
He took you to a place of serenity, then snatched it from you like you was the enemy
You believed in him, gave up dreams for him
Held him while he was crying & even listened when he was lying
Pleading & crying, asking God why the hell am I still trying
I could be loving me but instead I'm in love with a liar
I did everything right why it feel like I'm standing too close to the fire
He said he'd never leave and he didn't
He just went to visit other women
Shit was so different
Even when you kissed you felt the distance
Coward ass nigga, he ain't have no feelings
Wasn't real from the beginning
You can't make him love you, he gotta be willing
Some of these niggas don't know about sacrifice
You give him the world, you'd probably give him your life
Even when he ungrateful you don't dare blink twice
You give him the benefit of the doubt while your relationship loses life