It started with you forcing down my face
Into the pillow, into the suffocating dark
I was sleeping soundly, nothing to fear
Now I ask where was God?
Was it me you hated?
Or are you, were you just evil?
Not all people are thoroughly evil
But Hell should save you a space
Because you filled me with your hate
Your soul absent, your heart dark
Can you ever see God?
It is His judgement you should fear.
It is you I will always fear
For you did to me something so evil
Will I ever forgive you, forgive God?
My mind is forever in space
I am so alone in this dark
Teeming with what you gave me: Hate
Never forgive, never forget, it’s you I Hate
Left inaccessible with nothing but fear
Fear of men, Fear of the dark
Defiled by you and your evil
Desecrated between my legs the sacred space
And I ask where was God?
Did he shed a tear, your God?
Was he filled with Hate?
Between us there was no space
It didn’t matter my screams of fear
Into me you crammed your evil
And left me alone in the dark
Abandoned in the dark
I ask for help from God
To be victimized I must be evil
So myself I started to hate
Every day I lived in fear
You would materialize out of space
Darkness and anxiety fuel my hate
God is absent, in his place lays fear
Evil so broad my heart has no space