To many you weren’t much.
Just a dog who spent too much of her time sitting around with that everlasting smile that scared many into thinking you were on the attack.
Just a dog who was an extension of its owner.
To them you were just a dog.
But to me, you were my everything.
You were my best friend when no one else would play with me.
You were my pillow to hug on nights when I was to scared to sleep.
You were my shoulder to cry on when no one else cared to understand my pain.
You were my lifeline to reality when everything seemed so far gone.
You were my only source of unconditional love.
My source of unconditional loyalty.
My source of endless joy.
My only source of hope when everything was dark.
It may have only been six years, but it felt like you've been with me all my life. I almost couldn't imagine a world without you, until I had to.
It was so hard to let you go.
It happened so fast.
You didn’t give me time to prepare.
One day I came home from school, and I saw you unable to move your back legs.
It didn’t get better.
Why couldn't you chose a time when we weren’t struggling financially to get sick?
We couldn’t help you no matter how much we wanted to.
On Friday you were in pain, and by Sunday we had to make our decision.
On Monday we say our final goodbye.
Before school started I laid you on my lap and cried.
I cried about the times we might have had and the times we did.
We never had our last sleepover in my room.
I cried of regret.
Was I ever a good owner, was I a good friend, did I ever give you enough?
I cried of sadness.
My baby was gone.
And today I still miss you but, I cry from happiness.
We had a good run.
We made a lot of good memories together.
You are still my baby, even if you aren't here.
I don’t know if there is a heaven, I don’t even know if there is an after life.
But wherever you are, I want to know that you made a difference for me.
I want you to know just how important to me you were.
I hope you know I loved you.
I just hope one day to know, that you thought the same about me.
I hope to one day find that I gave you a good life.
I just hope you were happy.
I hope we get that reunion.
And maybe one day we may find out.
Together once again.
Forever with love,
Noelia Beatriz Zuniga