On nights when I couldn't sleep,
Under a breathless whisper
You told me you couldn't understand.
Wrapped in blankets, holding me close
Eyes fluttering shut, I fell asleep to your voice telling me,
"It'll be alright."
Little did I know...
As tired eyes greeted the gloomy sky
You had left my side
Leaving a broken trail
It started with a mumble, then a whimper, then a wail.
You told me you didn't understand!
You told me everything was going to be alright!
That you'd be there to hold me until the shattered pieces melded together again!
I saw the signs, yet I did nothing
With hands tied behind my back
I could only watch you from afar
praying to some higher being
that you'll be okay without me
I never knew what it was like
For the world to slow down and have my chest caving in,
crushing every sign of hope and comfort that you once gave
I never knew
that losing you, would be losing myself.
And as I read your letter...
You told me not to cry
But I did, I cried myself to sleep for days and nights
My mind, stuck on what you wanted from me
Four words...Four. Words.
If only I could go back
If I said those words, would things be different?
I know I'm late.
But I want you to know,
"You did well, Jongyun."