I've tried to hide my emotions and keep 'em bottled up
but I can't do that anymore, I just feel so out of luck.
I remember being in elementary
kids dads would come pick them up
and I'd be waiting for my brothers down the street.
I never knew what it was like to have your father really care
I wonder what its like to have him actually there
My friends all talk about how their dad is so good
while I'm stuck here wondering where the hell mine even is
How come you just show up when I'm seven years old?
What about those other kids.
My brothers and sisters you left behind.
Mikhail, Kyle, Jessica, Alissa.
What about them?
Oh right, I forgot.
Seven year olds are easier to deceive.
I grew up from then just yelling at my mom as she tried to tell me what you've done
"He's a good man, mommy I swear."
The truth was just too much to bare
I couldn't take it
I knew they were right
Living in spite
secretly knowing things that weren't right
I'm really starting to agree
You were nothing but a sperm doner
What kind of real father leaves his daughter without a bother
Crying and wondering why the only men that care are her brothers
But you see, I feel selfish. My brothers had it worse.
Living each day getting kicked to the curb
By you and the men before you
No water and food
barely even a shelter
What real man lets an 8 year old raise his daughter?
you aren't a real man
Just a childish boy who never learns to act his age
Now you realize I've come to know the truth in you
I'm not afraid anymore
I'm not afraid you'll hit or scream at me
like you did to my mother
I'm standing up now and letting myself know the truth
You have no rights to me,
stop using that as an excuse
You don't even pay child support
"I love you daughter"
if you really loved me,
why would you leave
Leaving me in the cold with the warmth of my brothers
you never loved them as your own you selfish racist bastard
I can't take it anymore, I can't even look you in the eye.
The shit you did
theres no going back now
it may be in the past
but the pain still lasts