why cant I be drowned in darkness

no light

no sound

just me and the weight of the unknown enveloping me

suffocating me

killing me.

because I can’t stand to live in this world any longer

a world where you treat me like the plague

you make me feel ashamed

ashamed to exist for you

I hate your voice

it makes my soul bleed

but I love your pain

it makes my heart sing

I can’t stand the way you look at me

what is that look anyway

tell me

tell me something before I dive into the darkness

and let it fill my lungs

let it have my consciousness

then I’ll become one with the unknown