Dancing with My Curtain

Fri, 01/02/2015 - 22:30 -- kpineda

I hid behind my curtain for so long that I created an entirely new persona for myself

Quiet, reserved, hushed, obedient

I hid behind my curtain for so long that I created an entire persona for my curtain

Emerald green, vibrant, boisterous, endless

I hid behind my curtain for so long that my new persona was all I knew

Don’t talk out of turn

Don’t make yourself known

Blend in, disappear

I hid behind my curtain for so long that I did not remember what it was like to be seen

To be noticed or acknowledged

To be appreciated or mentioned

To be heard or even thought of

I hid behind my curtain for so long that I judged those who weren’t behind curtains

Those who laughed loud and talked without hesitation

Those who danced erratically and sang off key

Those who no longer hid behind the curtain, but instead preformed in front of it

I hid behind my curtain for so long that I began to notice my curtain

Suede, soft

Green like strong, vibrant, enormous sequoias

Forever endless, piles upon piles of fabric stretching as far as the eye could see in every direction.

I hid behind my curtain for so long, I began to move with my curtain

First gentle touches of its soft ripples

Then grasping handfuls of fabric that poured out of my hands like water

Finally dancing with my fabric like waves dancing with one another

I hid behind my curtain for so long that I began to dance with it

Next to, in front of, behind and within

My curtain became my dance companion

And I was the lead

I danced with my curtain for so long that I no longer remembered what it was like to stand behind it

With every step within my curtain I became more colorful

With every turn my voice grew stronger and louder

With every twist I stopped fading away and became opaque

I danced with my curtain for so long that it became a part of me

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