I've become more lazy during this time,
I eat more, I sleep more, I move less, and my self-consciousness grows.
I try to change but I can't seem to find the motivation.
I know what I want to do
but I don't want to do it.
At some point I'm going to have to force myself to stop,
I have to force myself to go and do something
to push down my insecurities
I miss my friends, I miss going out, I miss my birthday, I miss my freedom.
I know that this isn't a way to take our rights away
I can't help but feel some type of way.
I know it's to protect me but it's not protecting me mentaly.
Frustration and anger is all I feel
All of my friends, even teachers don't know how to heal
Sooner or later i won't be able to sleep, eat, or move
The little motivation that I have left would be shattered
Eventually I will get tired of this consistent pattern.
I shouldn't be complaining, im safe, im health, i'm living, im breathing
I’m sorry, but I’m only a human being
Work, work, work,work
that’s all I can do
But what would happen when the work is due
Will there be nothing else to occupy my time, books and tv can't always fill up my mind
Family and friends I worry about
Are they safe, are they protected, are the caring
Sure i can call but who picks up the phone anymore
How are their mentalities,
Are they distinguishing fantasy from reality?
Summer isn't over yet. Lets still hope
Who am i kidding, it's only another way to cope
I hope and pray that everyone is doing ok,
I hope and i pray that everyone is staying sane
It won't be long now, or so I thought