Please don't talk
Just shut up and leave me alone.
Can't you see
That I don't deserve
To be talked to
And treated like a freaking human.
I am not human, rather an object to be used
And discarded when I am no longer usable.
So please stay away.
Please do not get close to me.
Beside, you will just leave
Once you find out how boring I am.
And that whatever I say is stupid
And no matter how many times the words
Just never come out right
And I just repeat, resay
What should be easy to say.
A simple anecdote is lost when I try to speak.
Arguments are next to nonexistent.
I feel eyes looking at me
And I think that no one wants to listen,
So I think that I should just shut up and
Stop talking forever
Because who wants to listen to my stupid
High pitch voice
That is just plain wrong because it reminds me
Of just how wrong, wrong, wrong, my body is.
I wish it were deeper.
Hmm, you still want to be with me?
Strange, but I won't tell you
Despite what I think
And how I feel
I still would like it if you
Would just be my friend.
Nothing more, nothing less.
If you want, I will speak
But you will have to be patient.
We could speak about anything,
Even if it is those dreaded feelings
That I can barely understand.
We will talk and talk
Or you will talk and talk
Once I get tired of talking, but I will keep listening.
Because despite what I have said before,
I still require human contact.