I choke you down the same way I choke down smoke from a cigarette.

I hate the way you taste

I hate the burning sensation you leave in my throat. 

but the way you make me feel

the calmness you provide 

makes up for the excrements you leave in my lungs. 

I secretly love all the damage that comes with being yours

I claim to not be an addict 

I simply love the feeling I get from being yours. 

although, I'm not sure I could stop at any time.