Chronic Depression
diagnosed at twelve
hold head under water swallow pills cut cut cut cut
still breathing
flinch when someone jokes about self harm
"kill yourself" laugh it off
vomit in the trash can
cry at two in the morning
stay positive, though
look for the bright side
one day i'll get surgery
one day i'll adopt cildren
one day i'll know what to do
but not right now
never right now