Chatroom Crisis
i thought i was healed
better
okay
but then i saw you were online
on the chatroom where we used to talk and i
shattered
all over again
the way i had when you first broke me
and i screamed
and i cried
and i felt like the little glass heart beating in my chest
had cracked open and spilled its blood
into my tears and
i couldnt breathe and
i closed the tab
shaking.
and i want to tell you how sorry i am
and make sure you are okay and
fine and well and everything i thought i was but
my heart stops and i cant
and so i run away from my computer and my problems just like i did
when i tried to sit with you again at lunch because
it hurts too much to breathe
when i can imagine you
on the other end