Cares

Thu, 08/03/2017 - 01:49 -- AshBri

"Rapunzel, Rapunzel, let down your cares"
He tells me to do that, but how could I dare?
"You're lovely tonight, please cast down your cares"
He claims to love me, he forever stands there

Every day is full of troubles
Full of doubt and pain, merciless fears
In this tower I keep it bundled
Hidden from the world, I shed my tears

I've not once stepped out of this castle
I've been no where, but these burdens remain
How crazy to know that the cruelty of life
Has mercy on no one, for all it's the same

My mother claims to love me, yet she's never let me go
From dawn until nightfall I sweep, clean, mop with soap
All the while time passes and my dreadful thoughts roam
All the while the clock ticks and I'm only getting old

I wonder what I can make of my life
I've lived this long- but no
Each and every day I live,
This life is not my own
Yet the pain inside me I can't rid of
It's mine and mine alone.
I cannot end it, I can't remove it, there's nothing else to do with it
It's all I have
And I've grown used to it
I may as well make use of it.

...

"Rapunzel, Rapunzel, let down your cares"
He begs me to do so but I won't dare
"Your beauty can't compare,with me your pain can be shared"

I smile with despair
He'll never understand...
All this pain I bare
Is who I am

Where is my boldness without the feeling of my lonloness?
Where goeth my swift mind
without the feel of abandon down my spine
That I've felt so many nights?
How could I ever pull through
In this world

Without the hard edge pain has giftd me?
How could I wish to break my history
If this suffering had never shaped me?
...

Another year has passed, I've tuned 18
And reality hit me like an epiphany
With all this pain I've stored within...
I know that I am ready.

"Rapunzel, Rapunzel let down your cares"
I'm done living life in this castle with stairs
"Rapunzel, Rapunzel, I know you're up there"
Tis no further reaon to hide
I'll come face the world
With all my wear and tear

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