car sick
i forget at times how vile i can be
i remember how we start and how we always end
and it reminds me of the constant molting of my faulty cover
pretending i'm not like you just to hurt you the same way you hurt me
your stomach drops as you see the look on my face when you ask if i love you
my body aroused at the thought of you feeling anything remotely close to what you did to me
the cards spoke to us in the middle of the night
when you hoped we'd be written in fate
and i tell you nothing really exists
except your nightmares and my ego
the cards tell you to let go but again you know we'll be right back at the start
i was made to be your lesson
you were made to put me in my place
god told soloman that he'd be punished every life after his own
but is it punishment if you end up wanting it
wanting it
wanting it