Sometimes I don’t know the difference

Between what I say and what I feel.

I just

Smile

Smile

Smile

Smile

And nod.

I’m lost in a crowd of people who hear me

But they don’t.

I’m just

Nice

Nice

Nice

Nice.

People like what I say.

What do I say?

Nothing.

My words lack substance.

My smiles lack joy.

My actions lack sentiment.

Sometimes I feel like holding up a sign

That says,

Pull back the curtain

Can’t you see it?