Can't let my "Future" See

Sun, 08/24/2014 - 23:47 -- emiltee

Compartmentalize, Idealize, try to forget the lies,
Pretend it doesn't hurt when they laugh at the color of my eyes,
the size of my thighs, the lack of high IQ in my mind, forget for my own benefit,
When they all serve to remind me of the endless pit

That at any given moment it feels like I'll fall
Too much pressure to maintain the fake face that I've gone postal
But on the outside I cannot compromise
The tears gotta stay inside because they can't realize or my 'future' is jeopardized

Put up the front and the battle armor,
Put on false confidence and smile a bit brighter.
Colleges care about clubs, connections, the ability to be social
But keep being individual and don't let the all-important-grades drop at all.

Pretend High School is not notorious for mental illness and bullying
Pretend public education has a good rep that I might be sullying
Pretend I'm learning humanities and science, not how to be a test taker
Pretend I won't be in so much debt after that the college dropouts will be richer.

I keep hearing how polite I am, for a teenager
Under the sham there's almost explosive anger
Back in the 19something's you say kids were smashing
Sweet and kind and not culture bashing.

Ridiculous us, so unappreciative of all of our opportunities.
Unhappy with inheriting your debt, smog, and dying trees.
Displeased that society is set up so you can't complain about education, because after,
We'd just be called lazy, angry problem kids, our hard work dismissed in laughter.

So I present the facade, not infuriation, to all colleauges who do not admit
that this system is farther of track than we can afford to permit.
Cause we won't be working after trying to stay ahead of a school of zombies,
The pile of debt we call college, find a job in no economy, please, we'll be pushing up daisies.
 

 

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