Cacophony of Silence

Why not speak?
Direct my thoughts in a linear way
Why hold back the truth in me?
The cacophony of things I need to say

This empty space that hangs heavy between words
Is it hesitation?
A cage built with the impassive bars of uncertainty
The silence reinforces the walls of insecurity

I can hear myself better
In the quiet that crowds in your wake
It's suffocating
When the silence gives echo to my thoughts

What is or isn't said
Gives no answers to the questions resounding in my mind
I can't help but look again
And try to read the silence in between the lines

A sigh of relief 
When the words stop for a time
Turns to frustration
As I realize that it's only quiet on the outside

This poem is about: 
Me

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