Broken

Am I broken or am I just scared
Scared to let anyone in
Scared to let anyone get too close
Close is not something I let people be
It's not something I'm open to
Openness it's just not my cup of tea
I shield my self, I hide
I run, run fast away
Am I broken or am I damaged
These scares I have won't heal 
They won't go away
This mask I wear is cracking
My resolve is breaking
I don't dare let anyone in
I'll surely mess up what has been handed to me.
I'll surely cower
For I can't do but one thing right
It's never fun and always lonely
Waiting in the corner for my time
For my time to come
Waiting for the opportunity
Am I broken
Not on the outside never ever on the outside
But it is true
That I am indeed broken
Broken on the inside where no one can see it
Scared so very scared
Scared to take a chance
To make that leap.
Scared to disappoint 
To hurt others
To be hurt
I am broken
My heart a million pieces
Hiding around
Can't be fixed
Can't be replaced
I wait but I'll wait to long
Screw up what's in front of me
Hold out for something I'll never get
I'll hold out for love
For someone who likes me for me
But I'll stash my feelings
Keep myself bundled
Keep me hidden
I am broken
I am scared
And I am damaged
I'll sit on the sidelines
And I'll look at what I lost
Should I end it
Could I end it
The razor says yes 
But everything is jumbled
Voices that should object
Can't be heard
"Slash away" is what's heard
Mind racing far to much
Don't let anyone see the real you
Put on your show face
The jealousy
The pain and anguish
The anger and hate
Hide it hide it all
Run run like you do
Don't let them see you,
Catch you
Don't let them see me as who I am
End 
Find the end, the time is near.
Get it over with.
NO!
It's time for a Change
Be the change 
Try to change
It might help
You'll never know
Put the razor away
Look for the brighter day
You might be broken but there is still hope.
Hope that all you've gone through wasn't in vain. 
You can dream.
You can be better.
You can live life the way it was meant to be.
For you only you.
For me only me.

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