Dear Words,

 

For every single one of you

Who are born and made from thousands of little words,

You have been in our lives since ¨Hello¨

To give us thousands of keys to access this society that we live in now.

I can't begin to imagine how many lives have you helped and inspired.

 

You must know that you touch all of our hearts, we appreciate you.

And perhaps some of us may not realize

That you are the purest gold that has ever been found.

I cannot begin to explain how

You, my words, are the center of my life, my deepest love.

 

You may be older than the day my soul was ignited,

But nevermind your age - you are very young.

And my heart flutters at your raw meaning full of depth,

Even if you mean the simplest thing such as ¨Hi¨.

I find your life and purpose astonishing…

 

You gave many of us thousands of chances

Despite how time flies over our heads.

But I know, you must be heartbroken

Not only by me but also by everyone you´ve been there for.

I cannot begin to understand how devastated and painful it must have been…

 

I know you mean the best of everything as you live on.

Yet, I know you are beautiful and imperfect with intention.

I don´t understand how people are capable of turning tables upon that.

I merely respect you but I know I´ve done you wrong…

I never saved you not even once from being abused.

 

I don't know if I can live with that.

You have the most precious thing in this narrow world,

But people have taken advantage of you and ruined your reputation.

I´ve watched you cry, I´ve seen you die so slowly…

And I´ve felt so fucking helpless that I froze.

 

My love, I should have taken care of you better

But I know I was so fucking late, I couldn't move my hands

And my heart became inked with your sole purpose of life

As their tongues sliced through your delicate veins,

Your meanings bled out off their lips.

 

I couldn´t process what I had just seen…

I watched you lie there on paper so endlessly meaningless…

My black heart of ink soon became nothing but paper

Under a million miles of skin that could easily be cut.

I flinched… and I couldn't cry.

 

Our ring of life just fell out of my hands,

I didn't save you like I promised I would

But I know you cannot forgive me like that

Even if you just laid me off.

Ask me, How the fuck can I live like that in this damned world?

 

You touched my delicate heart constantly with your tears,

I should have cared more, I should have fucking cared more than that.

Your fingertips reached for my views and meanings of everything you said,

I felt my tears drown us apart, more than ever.

You crashed your lips into mine and I hoped we stayed that way…

 

But you pulled back after 7 seconds later and looked at me heartbreakingly,

And I couldn't stand the way you looked, I wanted to tell you how much I love you.

You looked down and shook your head, and I felt your black blood in my hands.

We are torn in two and all of our days just slowly vanished into the thin air.

Our eyes met one last time.

 

Just one last time, we stared into each other's soul.

And I remember we stood on the highway of regret.

You seemed so empty, we didn't know what to say anymore.

And we just looked into our eyes… I struggled to hear you whisper.

You spoke so quietly, but I couldn't hear it.

 

Instead, I saw your tears laced with my pain.

I know you wanted to say it but neither of us could…

I just broke down and the holes in my apology just never added up.

You were so damn quiet and crying but you turned around and began to walk…

And I couldn't watch you go, I wanted to chase you, give you one more reason.

 

I couldn't do it. You vanished down the road into the dark.

We never said ¨Goodbye¨ but we did.

The center of my world, my deepest love,

I am sorry, and I know that will never be enough…

But I am so fucking sorry…

 

It never brought you back.

And not only did I but all of us, ruined the meaning of you.

 

If I could do anything, I would have turned back time

And make you feel everything that I intended.

We both know it's impossible but it's worth a try.

 

I hope you forgive me, even if my last breath is used for ¨Goodbye¨.

 

Sincerely,

The one who apologizes for everything & loves you.