Bitter Loneliness

I had always believed that I had a black hole

In the place of my soul

I was always so numb and cold

Or that was what I was always told

 

Rarely did I ever crack a smile 

Nor did I get easily riled

Nothing fazed me

Not even when I fractured my knee

 

Then why did I hurt

When he decided to flirt

With her and not me

Can't he see

 

I'm right in front of him

Willing to break a limb

If meant he could see

The real me

 

The one that loved drawing

And didn't mind withdrawing

From normal social interactions

The one who didn't mind making distractions

 

Why did I even care?

It just wasn't fair

I'm not used to feeling this way

I should just stay

 

Far, far way from them both 

The girl that I now loathed

For stealing the guy

Just because I am way too shy

 

And didn't get to him first

But it could be worst

Him and me could be nobody to each other  

I guess I'll have to look for another

 

One that didn't mind my cold heart

And my need to sometimes be apart

Someone who wanted me for who I am

And wouldn't just eventually scram

 

 

 

Comments

stefani99

so open and vulnerable. enjoyed reading your poem!

hstewart2002

Thank you for your feedback. I greatly appreciate it.

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