Behind this curtain, you will see,
a girl so different from the outward me.
A life worth a million lies,
I put up a happy face to conceal my cries.
In order to hide my self-proclaimed imperfection,
I wear a mask to ward off rejection.
The people around me do not know of my facade.
Mustn't let word get out that I am a total fraud.
I cannot let anyone witness this agony,
so I hold back my feelings no matter the gravity.
So much fear of revealing what's inside my heart
and fear of someone tearing it apart.
Throughout my life, I have been in only dismay.
I constantly bully myself everyday.
Can you see that I'm the biggest critic of my ego
that I keep ricocheting myself with a torpedo?
I must dig a deep dark hole to curl up in
to shield my heart that is so paper-thin.
If only I could accept the true me inside,
then I could reject the desire to run and hide.
Sometimes, I wonder if I should drop the anxiety.
I should just be myself even if it means showing a bit of impropriety.
Fear of rejection, humiliation, and pain,
from this what do I have to gain?
If you are still determined to see this girl's true version,
you must look behind this curtain.