Because you "loved" me and I "loved" you back I thought it was okay
To allow you to call me names
Disgusting!, whore!, slut!
And at the end of all that I still begged you not to leave me!
I allowed you to pressure me into sending you an explicit picture of me because In your own words
"If you love me you will"
And because I did love you
I did it
But because you "loved" me and I "loved" you back I thought it was okay
To let you say who I could and could not have as a friend/follow in any of my social medias,
And any time you were around I was in fear that someone will mention some guys name to you
Because it did not matter if they were a friend if they were family if they were my ex! Or if they were a celebrity
To you it meant I'd end up cheating on you with them
And god forrbid I not reply within seconds because to you I already had sex with whatever guy crossed my path
And then the interrogations would start
"Why did you not reply sooner"
"Where were you?"
"What were you doing?"
"Who are you with"
But because I "loved" you and you "loved" me back I thought it was okay
And not once did I stop to think that if you thought so little of me it meant you did not truly love me
But because I "loved" you and you "loved" me back
I allowed you to have the power to hurt me
And no not once did you lay a hand on me
But that did not mean you weren't abusive
Because abuse is not only physical but also emotional and many times we tend to forget that
It took me two weeks before our one year to finally realize what was happening
That I was not in a healthy relationship
Because love is not jealous
Love does not put down
Love does not hurt you
Love is kind
Love is patient
Love is not being scared of your lover
Love is not crying every night
Love above all is trust
Because if you don't have trust then you don't have anything
And since didn't trust me
We clearly didn't have anything
But above all I'd like to thank you
Because now I know what love is and what it isn't
And I do not stand for anyone who treats me any less than what I deserve
But because you "loved" me and I "loved" you back