From now on, If a man looks longer than two seconds
I will get uncomfortable.
Will Become paranoid when men stand too close
drunk or not
a touch still creates scars
You were sober enough to apologize
because of you a man is always like a tattoo gun
painful, leaving behind images i cant erase.
You need to remember that night,
because I’m what you left yourself on.
When you forced frosted hands up my shirt,
gripped my side, I pushed away
But you squeezed my shoulder
so hard I choked.
Your whispers feel like roaches crawling in my ear.
Told me the more I moved the worst it’ll be.
I tried to scream but I began to hyperventilate.
Your python grip tightened around my waist
You kissed me on the neck
my eyes watered like a busted pipe
as you unbuttoned my jeans.
You grazed my thigh,
you took every bit of courage i had
I laid there, daunted
but still began t scream
you cover my mouth with muscular hands.
I bit deep into them
you let go, I ran you block the door with your body
I wouldn't dare go near you again
Now I sit on your leather couch and rock back and forth.
the walls are colliding
I call mom and dad all ring no answer.
I cant eat, talk or walk
because of you.
sober enough to come and apologize to me,
but because of you,
a man will always be a tattoo gun,
painful,leaving behind images i cant erase
every second he gets to taunt me he takes.
silently laughing and smiling at my mesery
every knows what he did but no one wanted to help
every word that i said was a lie.
your own flesh and blood doesnt want to protect you.
all i could do was press my face in the pillows at night and take it
so many questions, why did it happen to me
where’s god when you need him
and the lord almighty could even respond to me
im the one who has to deal with these reaccuring dreams
watching what he did to me
its my fate to be uncomfortable around men
become paranoid when they stand too close
this is because of you.