For a whole year, we sat and talked and fought.
Because I love you Jay,
We talked. We argued. I hit you.
Because I love you and I don't want to lose you.
Didn't we have good times Jay? Possibly, but I can't remember them.
I remember you hurting me because you said love me.
Because I love you Jay... I pushed your face in the wall.
You were trying to leave, and I need you.
Because I love you, I taught you a lesson, in front of your 6month old daughter..
That I love you so much that I punched you
Because I love you, I rekindled your friendship, only to cut you off from everyone.
Your friends are bad influences.
Because I love you, You'll need to use my phone to call your mom.
"Why would you want to talk to her? All the stuff she's done to you"
Because I love you, I need you to stay with me, and you won't need to work, I'll pay "our bills".
Because I love you, and I can't lose you, I had to choke you.
You saw someone like my picture on social media...
But we sat at the hospital together Jay, remember? I stayed because I love you.
I love you more than myself.
I'm going to marry you Jay, because I love you.
Scarier words have never been said to me before.
Because I love you, I followed you, I watched your moms house when you moved out.
Because I love you, I yelled and made you feel inferior.
I called you crazy, demeaned you, disrespected you in front of your daughter.
I cheated because I needed you to know that you could be replaced, but I love you so I never would.
But didn't you?
Because I love you, I held a gun to your head, because you texted your best friend
I'm the only friend you need
Because I love you, I trapped you in my bedroom
Because I love you, I forced you to have sex with me, in front of your 8 month old daughter
"Michael, please stop, I don't want to"; "It's mine isn't it?"
"She won't remember anything"
She remembers everything; As do I.
Because I love you, I want you to have my child
But you have two you barely know how to take care of.
Because I love you, I buy your daughter diapers
I love Ryli, I made her watch so she knows what it takes to be a wife.
"She won't remember"
She's still scared; She still has dreams
Because I love you, I got your name tattooed on me; So you'd know I'd love you forever
Because I love you, I need you to get my name on you
You're mine. Forever.
Because I love you, I had to hurt you first Jay, to make sure you wouldn't hurt me.
"My heart has been broken before"
But I never thought about hurting you Michael.
But, Because I love you, I forgave you.