Because I Love You
Because I love you, I will give you up.
I will walk away from anger and hurt.
I will limp, with my broken heart,
into loneliness, and the future.
But when my future--
In every perviously imagined way,
Included your hand in mine, and you in my bed every night
I’ve got some rethinking to do, like:
Who am I if not your sidekick and who will be my superhero?
Who will save my day and will remove my damsel in distress status?
But then, I remember that you were no longer my hero
Instead, my villain who was always wearing someone else’s cape.
Dodging my victories, pretending I was the bad guy until
Eventually I molded in the shape that you were always trying to make me.
There was too much hurt for us to push through,
I couldn’t swim across our channel if I tried.
Your accusations were always bitter and so was my mindset,
You cannot find happiness in the same place you lost it
So why did we never stop searching
Deep inside each other?
I stopped tearing you apart
Because I love you.
I thought that never letting go was the right thing
Because I love you.
I thought that the cold shoulder would melt someday
Because I love you.
But now we haven’t spoken in months and the part of my
Heart that you lived in is being rebuilt.
Remodeling the old and broken
trying to make it new and better.
Bliss will live there, and so will love.
And your picture will hang on the wall,
Because I love you.