Because I Love You

Fri, 04/04/2014 - 21:47 -- Shelene
Don't worry.
You shouldn't do that.
Just close your eyes.
Close your eyes and forget about everything.
Forget about pain.
Forget about your troubles.
Forget about everything.
Don't worry.
Close your eyes and let the darkness come, let it surround you.
It's ok if you do that.
It's ok if you're afraid.
It's ok if you fear what will happen next.
But try not to be afraid, try as hard as you can.
Think about your happiness.
Think about the good times.
The better times.
I want you to smile.
I want you to smile and picture in your mind your favorite person.
Picture the person you love.
You're with them.
I want you to know that.
You're in their heart and you always will be.
Remember that.
We love you.
We all love you.
We always will.
Everyone.
No matter who you are.
No matter how small you think you are.
You are big to us.
You matter.
You may not think you matter, but you do.
Remember that woman you saved?
Remember that child that you made laugh?
Do you remember all of the people who smiled because of you?
I want you to think about them.
Just close your eyes and take a deep breath.
Don't worry.
I don't want you to do that.
This is scary.
I know.
But be as strong as you can.
You can squeeze my hand if you want, if it hurts.
I'm here for you.
We are all here for you, we always have been, and always will be.
I promise.
It's ok if you cry, I know you're scared.
I'm crying too.
It's ok if you let the salty waterfalls flow down your soft skin.
I will too.
You can talk if you want to.
I'm listening.
I will listen to your stories, your apologies, everything.
I will listen.
I will take in every single word you say and I will remember it.
I will remember it until my time comes.
Just look at me, look at me and smile.
Smile because you're beautiful.
No matter who you are.
No matter where you come from.
You are beautiful.
I don't want you to be afraid.
I don't want you to feel pain.
I want to take your pain so you are at peace.
That's all you deserve.
You deserve it.
I will hum you a lullaby.
I will sing for you because I don't want you to worry.
Because I want to ease your pain.
I don't want you to feel any pain.
I don't want you to feel any pain because I love you.
You don't have to love me, you don't have to know me, but I love you.
You are loved.
I want you to know that.
I want you to know that you will never be alone, I will always be with you, you will always be with me.
No matter what you've done, no matter who you are.
I'm with you.
I promise.
Can you promise something to me?
Can you promise me that you will push aside any pain, anger, heartache.
Push it all aside and focus on love, joy, and being at peace.
You are forgiven.
I don't know what will come next.
I don't.
But whatever comes I want you to take me with you, in your heart, in your memories.
Take me with you.
Because I love you.
Now close your eyes, close your eyes and forget everything.
It's ok.
I promise you, it's ok.
Don't worry.
Please don't worry.
I want you to go with happiness in your heart, with peace falling over you.
I do.
I want nothing more.
I will go on remembering you, carrying you with me in my heart and in my memories.
I will never forget you.
Never.
If you don't believe me.
Please try.
Because I am speaking truth, and nothing more.
Is it time?
It's time.
Now close your eyes.
Focus on my voice.
Focus on my love.
Focus.
Focus.
Darkness.
Feel my words as they wash over you, covering you in a blanket of love and understanding.
Focus.
I feel your heart.
I can feel the beat slowing, slowing.
I can see your breathing, in and out, in and out.
I can see you becoming tired, sleepy.
That's ok.
Pretend you're just going to sleep.
You'll wake up again.
Your heart slows, it slows to a stop.
Your pulse is gone.
But you are still here, you're in my heart.
I will remember.
Your skin will cool, your soul will move on, your body has become lifeless.
It's ok.
I know you're here.
I know you're still scared.
You can go now.
I won't forget you.
I want you to move on because I love you.
I love you.
 

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