There were days she welcomed death with open arms

 

Said it’s okay, all I am is scars

 

And i’m not sure if there’s a way to fix a broken heart, or if i’d even want to

 

This numbness isn’t just new, it’s real

 

Not the false sense of security I used to feel

 

This isn’t a dream, this is reality, where fears become your thoughts

 

Where sunny jogs become strolls in the dark

 

As you slowly let go

 

Let go of, everything you had

 

Oh, a life this controlled sounds so sad

 

But it can change if you’d just leave the past

 

Because the past, was never meant to last

 

Open your eyes to the present, say hello to the future

 

Where things are better than now

 

And the people are happy

 

 

 

Why wasn’t this existent before?

 

Why’d the wounds have to be the problem?

 

Why’d the rain have to flood?

 

Why’d nobody make the bad things good?

 

 

Like now--

 

Where the scars are for storytelling of how

 

This person I knew bloomed into a flower so beautiful

Just a mark on the surface, a scratch of the soul

 

A line that symbolizes the person may grow cold

 

But if it lets itself see a little light-

 

Then that scar just might crack through the ground

 

And leave the area that surrounds

 

With a stem that resembles the start

 

Of something new, something in the air, a new life--

 

 

Let love in, be apart of the air, feel alive

 

Be life

 

As lucky as we may be to live

 

There’s days where you may wish you didn’t

 

But my hope is that you make the strength to say

 

“Even though I’m not at all okay tonight, I promise you tomorrow i’ll be fine”

 

You are love

 

You are dreams

 

You are what makes reality

 

Feel like heaven

 

But when you let something make your skin crawl, that’s when you fall

 

We all have days that never seem to end

 

Just make the most out of what you have

 

That’s really all you can do

 

Time is what you make of it, if it even exists

 

Moments shared are the best, because the day you’re put to rest

You don’t want an empty album filled with pictures of a clone

 

Loneliness will kill you if you let it, if you make yourself alone

 

Speak out, shake the numbness away

 

You were never meant for the darkest days

 

Happiness is the only thing in your life, that was ever meant to stay

 

Just like people sometimes you let it go

 

But you know if they’re really yours, they’ll come back again someday

 

Patience will be your worst enemy, as well as your best friend

 

So when you feel like slipping up, tear the anger to shreds

 

And engulf it in flames, then continue to the light

 

Find your way back to the start

 

And dear friend you know, that no matter how far we part

 

We’re only a letter away

 

We knew this would happen

 

And that it would be anything but easy, to have to runaway--

 

But that’s the card thats been played

 

So, I guess goodbye for now

 

Things will change for you, but possibly nobody knows how---