My heart belongs to you only--
At least that's what I've said.
Yet today here I am in conflict,
And I don't want to leave my bed.
I just want to dream, and use this passion,
Even though I know it hurts you.
I can't feel an embrace or intense adoration,
So in the middle of this, what can I do?
I've tried wrong ways before
And like to believe I won't return.
But, if I can't control this small thing,
Have I really learned?
You tell me I have your righteousness,
That I can escape this death.
Why don't I desire it enough?
Do I utterly fail the test?
Jesus, may I desire obedience!
I promise my heart hates my sin.
I don't know how I'll overcome,
But I know that love will win.
Let me feel your brokenness,
Break me of my selfishness.