Back2School
back to school
back to hitting the books
back to hitting myself
for not being someone else
for struggling
Back to school
back to caring more about the grade
than how things work that way
back to wanting just to get home everyday
back to "hey how are you"
"i missed you so much"
back to why didnt you visit me
back to this lack of empathy
back to covering my shoulder
so those boy wont want to stare
back to wearing loose pants and
ignoring whats happening over there
back to crying
and pleading
and messing up
and bleeding
back to papers marked with red
back to a heart filled with dread
back to school
back to folders
back to bags over our shoulders
back to bending over backwards
back to slumping forward
back to red eyes
back to tired
to having our nerves wired
back to back with all this stress
all this dwelling in our heads
back to school
back to this
back to what else did i miss
and back to losing myself
to become someone else
for the photos
the selfies
the existential crises
sign my yearbook
girl we're not there yet
i signed it with regret
but for now we're back to school
thinking that we're cool
thinking that we got an image
a rep
and we're too cool for school.
for now we're back to school.