awesomeness lies in feeling,

to feel so on top of the world

and be left reeling

even the deepest pain which leads to 

the most monstrous of cries,

the power of pain is to feel alive.

wrecklessness is awesome

never have I felt more alive and intact with myself

than when I was left with a shattered love

No emotion can ever compare to the strength

of a broken heart,

never was I able to enter myself

and touch myself in the most sincerest of ways

until somebody afflicated me

with the strongest of pains,

in the most innocent of days

i touched my naked soul

and i found heavenly delicateness 

when I did not feel okay,

awesomeness was in the recovery

the moment of joy was AWESOME

but the soul searching that came afterwards

where i found myself hidden in the darkest of my emotions

was ample,

sorrow was never enough

sorrow was emptiness

sorrow was art 

it was beauty 

but the wretchedness of hate felt

when he left me

was joyful

what what even crazier

was that it left me beautiful 

it was a prestige to have my heart broken by you

that was so tantalizingly awesome

I have never felt more alive

That feeling of sorrow and misery was so strong

it was a reminder that indeed

I AM ALIVE

A being capable of feeling an emotion so strong,

everything is awesome 

you just have to look for

the beauty behind the madness